We have a third roommate now. Well, more like I was told the day before that we are getting a new roommate: "oh, by the way, des, i forgot to tell you, someone's going to move in on friday" "ok! ...wait, WHAT?" i think that's roughly how the conversation went. he's pretty cool - he  went to brown with mark and now we represent china, japan, and korea all in one apt but i never see him anyway since he works 3pm-3am at a japanese trading firm. crazy work hours, isn't it?

roommate outing at sunday brunch @ the famous blue water grill. we are all wearing nice button down shirts and looking preppy/professional. isn't it cute? i coordinated it! jk notice i'm the only one who took advantage of the complimentary mimosa? i mean why did they all insist on getting orange juice? come on, it's 1 in the afternoon


I've been making more of an effort to carry a camera around with me but it's not easy whipping it out in front of people when you are no longer a silly college student for some reason. you know when i realize im growing old? when i find myself not being able to grab the nicest, most expensive eggs, milk, etc. any more when i go grocery shopping. it's kind of a sad and amusing realization.


ductape came to visit with sean. that's the fateful night that was recorded in jane's journal, you know, the night i ate everything in sight. it was awesome. but i got bored out of my mind when i went clubbing with them for jane's work friend's bday party although it was in no part their fault. i mean people came wearing primp below the knee black work dresses and low heel black pumps, you know the kind you see in ann taylor catalogues?


drunken ktown karaoking with keith and vanessa was fun. with all those old school korean songs and what not. like really really really old school. i was so drunk that i fell down the stairs on the way down to the subway station and hurt my ass. literally. well that was fun too. at the time.


my co-worker caroline's bday party. i think she was making a michi face (one of the artists who make fun of me all the time aka my new best friend). im really not sure. i would like to state that shes normally really HOT and sometimes looks like boa the korean pop star.


yes, i was dancing and realized i had a straw stuck in my hair the whole time. to think that i was looking for it earlier.


i didnt know what it was but thought it was funny. it was the burton shop in soho. i wanna go snowboarding!!!


isn't he just the CUTEST? after i play with him my eyes hurt so bad that i wanna poke them out and i sneeze and cry non-stop due to my dog allergies, but i just can't resist the urge. why am i allergic to dogs and milk, my two favoritest things in the world?! it is so cruel.


my fav painting at the met- monet's la grenouillere (did i spell that right? i hate writing in french, why do they assign gender to regular nouns anyway? its not only sexist but just plain pointless). it looks strikingly touching in person i stood in front of it all amazed and moved for about 5 minutes. thats a really long time considering i was really tired and hung over. the met was amazing. i was taking all these pictures of the paintings i particularly liked. i think i wanna get into painting now.

my friend's fav:

i absolutely love van gogh but i didnt really feel the same way i felt when i saw landscape with house and ploughman (i had to look it up, of course i dont remember what its called) at the hermitage museum in st. petersburg.


i suddenly really got into baking. im baking a loaf of bread as of right now, too. it's so freaking good when it's fresh out of the oven even though that way you easily burn your tongue.  i feel like im turning into stephanie sam junior. maybe i can be her apprentice! Here are some of my creations: whole wheat walnut raisin scone, whole wheat bagels, yogurt cake, whole wheat cream bread, green tea yogurt muffin. I don't really like whole wheat all  that much but I ran out of flour and was too lazy to go buy it.



I've known for quite some time that I am not the smartest person when it comes to "life" in general. but why am i always so slow? I didn't know about hurrican katrina until somone at lunch started talking about how horrible it was for the people in new orleans. I just nodded profusely and said I know, it really is, while trying to look sad and sympathetic, not having the faintest idea what he was talking about until people talked enough about it. Today at work, we started talking about feeling one's pulse (something about me denying that i ever said "as if" and artists accusing me of having said it and using a lie detector to see who's lying, etc. you know, a typical everyday conversation), and I asked how because I don't feel mine when I place my fingers on my wrist, and this other artist who always makes fun of me asked, you don't know how to feel your pulse? then HOW do you know you are even alive? stupid me was actually confused and had to think about it for a while. when i got my thoughts together, i hesitantly put my hand over my chest as i felt my heartbeat and said unsurely...uhm..because i can feel my heartbeat...? people laughed so hard higher people in the office had to come over to ask what the hell was going on.

believing in god feels like being on drugs 24/7. it seriously feels so good. without the side effects. it's also probably cheaper. so kids, say no to drugs and hello to god.

my phone broke in half.

i lost everyone's number. RIP phone- you have been good to me. and dont worry im going to replace you soon enough. with a new number.

Living in NY has its merits but honestly I thank God every night for getting me back home safely (they do say it's safer than most cities, though, just how they think that, i dont know). I don't have any self-defense "weapon" so I always have my key ready when I'm walking alone at night even though I'm pretty sure a key is not going to do much damage when shit hits the fan. Earlier tonight as I was napping before going out (I fell asleep at work today but that's a whole different story) and woke up to a strange knocking on the door, which seemed to have lasted about 3-5 minutes. I live on the 5th floor, and people have to ring the bell to get into the building. Granted I was by myself because my roommate's gone for the whole week, I seriously panicked. And at that very moment, my phone started to ring, it was The stalker! Did he somehow find out where I live through some creepy way and is calling to see if I'm in the apt or not??? I quickly turned the ringer off and played dead, hoping whoever it was would just go away (a tactic I perfected in those days when I would try to avoid my scheduled violin lessons by standing on a chair in front of the entrance door so that I could look through the peep hole and know to stay silent and not get the door if it was my violin teacher. That sometimes made my mom angry). Knocking stopped. Worked up the guts to open the door and check outside 30 minutes later with a phone attached to my ear. No one. I finally went out to meet up with a friend. Ended up being late of course...
Now I just want my roommate to come back home .

It felt so surreal. I absolutely love love loooooved the speeches at the psych dept ceremony. It was simply the BEST. I will never forget that moment when all of us were looking around only to see everyone else also wiping their tears away. So inspiring. Our reception food kinda sucked compared to the other depts tho. I wonder why, surely our dept is not THAT big.

We didn't know what to do for Wacky Walk so Cathy put together something v. last minute. Our balloons were so noticeable from anywhere. That's how our parents spotted us at all times. But they were too big so they didn't show up in any of the pictures.

My sign: Mom & Dad, thank you and love you (in Korean).
Cathy's sign: Thank you (in Vietnamese, which she spelled wrong and her grandma made her fix). Ho Family USA (her family's email add)
Iesan: Taiwanese flag. Bongo drum. Shell necklace. She was interviewed by a reporter from Taiwan who asked why she was carrying them around.

Korean Fobs reunite! With Miyoung, Woojin, Jungkuk, & DCho

Football Stadium- Doctoral candidates walking in

Thoughts on commencement: those GSB students were a bit too much. they were louder than us undergrads. Steve Jobs (http://news-service.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505.html) told us he dropped out of college and didnt know what pancreas was. I heard someone saying "that's why you should have gone to college, pal". No free ipod shuffles. O well. Such is life.

Me: *proudly* Hey, look, I put a tiara on my cap!
Cathy: OMG, you just look STUPID!!! *realizes she has a blown-up flamingo on hers* Oh. *looks ashamed* *starts laughing like a maniac* so typical.

Thanks you so much for coming guys! I  you v. much! With Paloma, Anna, Monique, and Jennifer, see the color scheme (blue and pink)? I didn't realize until now that I was flashing my diploma in every picture. Guess I was kinda proud. I mean, after 180k and 4 years, it finally happened!

Met up with Cathy and Iesan in Main Quad. To think that I never have to go there again to attend classes/meetings/office hours is just crazy. Flashing KDPhi sign for one last time in front of MemChu.

Iesan, open your eyes!

There you go - Iesan and her papa

Koreans being...Koreans..isn't my mom so cute hahaha

My friend who graduated in May told me that graduation felt so different than any other coming of age events. It really does. I'm happy with everything that happened and although Monique told me to be funny in this entry I have no energy to be funny or deep or elaborate more. Packing was truly a bitch. I can't believe I'm all moved out. I couldn't have done it without my mom's help. Funny how I'm supposed to be all grown up and have figured everything out, I still feel like a little girl inside.

Thanks Mom & Dad for everything and I love you.

Thanks friends for coming, you guys made it that much better.

I miss living with Cathy already. Don't forget our harajaku moments, I did not peace out on you. Please keep loving me.

Thanks Monique for hosting me. I love being here. So much free time yet so many things to do. I truly love California. And I also can't wait to decorate my new apt. I've decided my theme will be "posh resort on a tropical island". I hope canfraggle approves.

Wow. KDPhi Formal 2005- Hotel Monaco, SF

Normally formal entries would be filled with pictures of pretty girls in pretty dresses. But not when I'm a formal chair. I care more about the set-up and organization than vanity. ...wait maybe not that, more like they're equally important to me now.

No offense to previous formal planners but I really think it was the BEST FORMAL EVER!!! everything flowed so smoothly, the paris ballroom we luckily got upgraded to last minute and the room/table set-up were absolutely beautiful, DJ Oswaldo exceeded all our expectations, girls looked simply gorgeous, and the ceremony part didn't feel slow at all thanks to the best speaker Cathy (I must say, all the way from "trucks full of chicken" to being our spokesperson, that speech class really worked wonders).

I've been pouring my heart and soul into this for the past month. Seriously, this might just be my calling. I was extremely stressed, nervous, and almost wanted to kill myself when I was slaving myself away day and night doing all sorts of stuff that you can ever possibly imagine to put this event on, but I loved the end results so much- it simply blew me away.

I never knew wedding planners had it so hard. I so seriously felt like I became one!!! Why is there so much to do and pay attention to???!!!! After all that preparation, took us an hour and a half to set up centerpieces, place date books, yearbooks, favors (picture frames), place cards with entree choices, set up for slideshow. Amelia, Cathy, and I stayed up all night puttng together stuff the night before and were feeling like shit from lack of sleep. I must thank Willow for staying up with us til 6:30am making jackets, dreses and glueing buttons for jackets for the date book covers. They all turned out beautifully. Thank you guys who told me you liked them. That really meant a lot to me and sorry if I kept bugging you asking if you liked them. I was so proud of what I did!!!! I had never done so much arts and crafts, had to think of creative decoration ideas in my life. EVER.

I also want to thank everyone who appreciated us and gave us encouraging words and warm hugs. It really made me feel like it was all so worth it in the end. Cathy and Amelia made an amazing slideshow that made us laugh and cry. Thank you. Tears came out of my eyes from laughing so much when we were watching the senior presentations though. It was v. embarrassing and wildly entertaining at the same time.

Many many pictures in this entry so I can brag about what I've accomplished-

Exhausted and frustrated me and Willow working in sweatshop condition at 5 in the morning after photocopying for 4 hours from 12-4am. We seriously wanted to screw it all.

Finally finished. Napped from noon to 2pm. Left for hotel to set up at 3:30pm.

Final table set-up!!! Glorious outcome..I fell in love with my own creation! just like professor higgins

Centerpiece (we filled up the vase with clear marbles and sprinkled them around the vase & 3 floating candles on top of a silver plate. much drama about these damn calla lilies..but they're so "simple and elegant" Thanks Cathy for calling up all the places frantically and finally getting them!!!!)

With favor (picture frame, thanks Iesan for making them!), "her" datebook and the tiara yearbook). Our theme colors were tiffany blue and white as you can tell.

Okay. maybe that was enough about decoration. This is the room and the people-

Cathy our MC/miracle maker looked freaking HOT tonight (I am proud of the fact that I helped her pick out that gorgeous dress and the silver sandals. What do you think I should be- a professional shopper or a wedding planner?)

Cathy and Me in blurry mirror picture yet again

My beautiful, beautiful lils presenting me at big sister farewell with the SWEETEST messages and the most perfect gifts in the world. I could just DIE right now. I really think I am the luckiest big sis in the world.

me and my very first lambda lil Kat aka miss president!

My beautiful Mu lil Kim aka miss vp internal (my cutie pie pikachu) and my nu pledge baby Anna (crazy, crazy, crazay! but so fun!) I am so proud to be able to call you girls my lil sisters (Lisa, too) and I really feel so lucky to have such amazing girls like you as my lils, who are so beautiful inside and out and always put a smile on my face. You guys make me very happy. Thanks for being so wonderful. I mean, I guess it runs in the family.

House Picture with Nu Pledges

Lambda Class Picture

Mu Class Picture

from left to right: miss oh-so-perfect kdphi, miss kdphi ghetto fabulous, miss kdphi fob 4 life, miss kdphi feisty, and miss kdphi diva (thanks for the pic christine! i avoided the craziness while taking class pictures)

Nu Pledge Class

Meet my date Greg. This picture explains him well - gin & tonic in one hand and riesling in another (haha look at limin, even miss photogenic can be caught in an inopportune moment).

Now meet Cathy's date, Tuan.

Greg and Tuan became best friends and made multiple, multiple trips to the bar. Thankfully, someone had high tolerance but the other person did not. Later, I think his face ended up matching his shirt...

In all seriousness, I must thank greg for being the most well-dressed (you can't really see in pictures but his tie perfectly matches my dress), patient, understanding, supportive and sweetest date ever. Maybe for high tolerance too. I think I was kind of amazed. hey now you know you never want to go to a formal with the person who organized it. Stop smiling!

From L to R: miss kdphi  stylish, miss kdphi she'll be buying the world one day, miss kdphi comedan, Christina (Willow's date), miss kdphi heartbreaker

Prom pictures-

Seniors with dates

Okay no more. don't beg me. I will leave you with this though: my lesbian lover aka miss kdphi for life/ hot sexy lady in red, sarah